Remembering Cory Monteith

One of my favorite photos of him.

I didn't want to call this a "casual screaming" post because it's not. This post is dedicated to the memory of Cory Monteith. Someone who helped me through one of the darkest times of my life and someone we lost too soon.

Cory passed away in 2013. I remember when I found out. I remember it so clearly.  It was a Sunday and I slept through my alarm and my dad came to my room to wake me up. This was odd. I live on the 3rd floor of my house and the rest of my family lives on the second floor. This is one of the few times my father has climbed the stairs to my room.

He told me to get ready for church and he said they found an actor from Glee dead at a hotel. My dad and I are both Gleeks. We watched the show together and when he told me that, I fumbled with my phone to find out who. Honestly, I was hoping it was one of the new cast members because at least it would have hurt less because I had grown attached to the original cast. He said it was Finn and I just didn't want to believe it. I googled Cory and sure enough every news site was talking about it. And I really hoped it was a hoax. They had a death hoax about Chris Colfer in the past. I didn't want to believe it. But it was true.

As you can tell from this blog, my life revolves around celebrities. I follow them closely because these people are what keeps me going a lot of the time.

Cory was the first person I ever labeled a hero. I have always been a very weird and different person compared to my peers and I always hated the way I was. I watched Glee religiously. It was the Rocky Horror episode that helped me. There's a scene, where Cory's character. Finn walks through the halls of McKinley high in nothing but his underwear. Throughout the whole episode, he mentioned feeling insecure, but that scene, it was like he didn't care. And because of that I don't care if people see how weird I am. I'm proud of how weird I am because of that.

And I know. That was him just playing a role and all, but where I was in my life, it made a huge difference in my life.

Another favorite.

I don't want this post to just be depressing. I want to remember Cory and how good and fun he was. I wish I knew a way to include Instagram videos here, because Harry Shum Jr. posted some funny memories of Cory on his Instagram. But I guess we're stuck with interviews and Glee moments.

Cory on Ellen. This interview was unbelievable adorable. Here's a clip:

I found this clip of some of Finn Hudson's best moments:

Another clip of him on Ellen because why not?

Let's end the stream of clips with some of his most memorable performances on Glee:

"Can't Fight This Feeling Anymore"

"Jesse's Girl"

"Someone to Love"

"Bye Bye Bye/I Want it That Way"

"Damn It, Janet"

And last, but never least, the most iconic Glee cover: "Don't Stop Believin'"

I miss him so much and writing this post just made me miss him more. I have not been able to rewatch early episodes of Glee since his passing, but I listen to the songs all the time.

I had written a letter to Cory the day I found out. Like things I wish I could tell him and it's in a notebook somewhere. I wish I knew where it was so I could write it here. Maybe if I find it, I'll add it to a post on his birthday next year. Let me end with a spam of photos because I don't know how else to end it and I saved a lot of photos for this post and cried.