Heyo! Hope you're doing well. I have had QUITE the time since I last posted. This post is being written about 8 hours before it has to go up just because I am full of emotions and I need to get them all out. ALSO, this is my 250th post!
As the title states, this post is about Joe Jonas' newest song, "Work It Out" off his upcoming album, Music for People Who Believe in Love. I wrote a Fangirl Friday about Joe over a month ago and I very much explained my whole timeline as a fan of his and why he means so much to me. It's a long one, so Godspeed if you decide to give it a read.
Long story short, Joe has gotten me through some dark times. I've been a fan for 18 years. He's made me feel seen both with his music and the way I relate to his public "persona". Sometimes he'll do things that will align with me going through the roughest things in my life. The coincidences have very much fueled my parasocial relationship with him. Ironically a lot of my trauma is tied to him and his brothers because they are the light in the darkness for me.
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| Cover art for Music for People Who Believe in Love |
To talk about why this song is so important to me and why the timing of the song is PERFECT, I need to get personal for a bit. So trigger warning for mentions of suicidal ideation, depression, anxiety, and hospitalization. I have many more light-hearted posts you can read if you're interested.
On July 6th, I admitted myself to the hospital and was being monitored because I was actively suicidal. The next day I was taken to a psyche ward where I received care for nine days. I was discharged on Tuesday. I'll be honest, some of my fellow patients had photos of their families. I had someone print my favorite photo of Joe because he's the biggest reason I stopped myself from actually committing suicide and why I decided to get help.
He opened pre-orders and announced the release date for his new album on Wednesday. And today he released the first song from it. He'd been teasing the song for a while and we all called it "Even Baddies Get Saddies" because of one of the lines we all latched onto.
The first time I heard the opening verse: "Come on, Joe, you got so much more to be grateful for / Stop bein' say 'cause you're makin' the room uncomfortable / Okay, I get it, right now, you're feelin' so miserable / Sometimes I wish I had powers to be invisible / Even baddies get saddies and that's the hardest truth / Called your mommy and daddy, they don't know what to do / You're seein' everything backwards when it's so beautiful / Sometimes I need remindin'" I felt so seen because I related to every sing line of that verse.
I have dealt with depression and anxiety since I was nine years old. I'm 26 now. It came to a head when I admitted myself to the hospital. I was talking to my dad yesterday about wishing I was invisible. Not wanting to be perceived by other people especially when I was struggling. And I am struggling, despite having been discharged from the hospital. Since being home I have been attempting to see the silver lining in everything.
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| From Joe's Instagram Story |
The chorus is real and I do feel like he's talking to me directly. Just like I thought he was talking to me in 2008 when I heard "Underdog" by the Jonas Brothers for the first time. Time truly is a circle.
The chorus goes "Hello, hello, hello, hello, wake up tomorrow is now / Get up, get up, get up, get up, what are you whinin' about? / No, nobody's gonna save you now, no, nobody's gonna pull you out / Brush your shoulders off, life's gonna work it out".
It's true. Sometimes you have to find the courage to take care of yourself because no one else will. I had to admit myself to the hospital because when I was screaming for help, no one helped me. I had been struggling badly since last August. Coincidentally, that is when the Jonas fixation returned because they are the only people who can pull me out of my own head most of the time. My brain knew things were going to get bad and pulled out the "big guns". June 26th marks one year since the Jonas brainrot returned.
The second verse: "So you think you're too cool to go to therapy / But look at you, your anxieties got anxieties / You go to bed with a head full of insecurities / Nobody cares what you said back when you were seventeen / Okay, maybe I'm a little dramatic / Okay, maybe I'm a little manic / Some days, I wanna float away / Sometimes I need remindin'".
When I was in the hospital they'd take my vitals regularly. My pulse was always high because being anxious has been my baseline for over a decade. It may be super lame to admit, but listening to the Jonases' music is the only time I don't feel anxious. They get my mind off the things that I'd be ruminating over.
I have severe insomnia where sometimes I'd only sleep less than five hours in a week. Although I'd be exhausted, I just could never turn my brain off. Fortunately thanks to my grippy sock vacation, now I have been prescribed medication to help me sleep so I've been doing better. I'm actually ruining my sleeping schedule for this song release and to write this post. But Joe is worth it.
I absolutely love the song and it is exactly what I need right now. But ALSO just wanna talk about his voice. Every time I don't think the man's voice can get any better he proves me wrong and I love it. Cannot wait to hear his vocals on the rest of the album.
I'm so glad this post didn't get super long as my past Jonas posts have. If by some MIRACLE Joe ever comes across this post: Hello, Joseph. Hope you're doing well. I'd like to say how incredibly proud I am of you. I've watched you grow as a person and an artist for almost two decades now and it's been an absolute joy. I am honored to be a fan of yours, I am so excited and looking forward to Music For People Who Believe in Love. Thank you for the music. Thank you for always being there when I feel like I have no one. Just thank you. For everything.
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| If you were curious about my favorite photo of him |
I will be writing a Kinda Review about his album when it drops. Franklin's Fangirl Friday SHOULD be coming out next week if all goes well. So you've got that to look forward to on my blog.
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